| About me |
I am a soul that, if I don’t comprehend something I simply learn it. I have yet to find something I cannot learn and do myself. The word "Can't" does not register in my mind. It is unbelievable the love I feel for my daughter . For her I will sacrifice everything. She is the commitment of my life. I feel very deeply....sometimes feeling strange wondering if anyone else feels emotion the way I do. I have yet to meet anyone that does, or at least admits it openly. The one I will love will not just be one note; she will be many on a composition of notes that make the most beautiful song that exists. Only she and I will hear that song as it plays. I express myself from the very bottom of my soul and let my vulnerabilities be seen to the world. That is true strength. I still believe in my imagination, the way a child does; it’s where our magic comes from. I believe in absolute truth and moral integrity, betrayal of others is a violation of our soul. Every truthful question deserves a heartfelt and honest answer. I am instilling in my daughter to embrace love and love everyone, to prepare her for falling in love one day. I have taught her this since the first time I held her. I gave her my word (promised her) when she was five minutes old that I would never tell her a single lie. I have already answered some very tough questions for her. I have kept my word. Infinity. I cry in every movie, especially when I see an open display of profound happiness. It is the one magic we forget is our reason for breathing: Joy. Of the myriad of emotions God blessed us with, only one emotion affords us an expel from our body: Tears. Of those, "Happy Tears" are most profound: the ultimate feeling of joy beyond belief. When we love, it teaches us the signals: When someone on the outside is trying to push away but their heart is saying, “I am scared inside and I just want you to hold and protect me.” True love is spending all of your time together as if you were the best of friends since birth. It is as close as you can get to being twins without being related: Two souls intertwined that simply know each other so well that sometimes words do not even have to be spoken. Being childlike is not being afraid to act like a complete silly idiot in front of the world as if they are invisible to you. I will love pure......being the biggest fan and the president of my mate's fan club, even if I am the only member. Animals are the best judge of character. If my cat does not like someone, neither should I. The best word I have made up that is not in the dictionary is “nuggles”: The ultimate perfect snuggle with the one you love that completes you in a way that is indescribable. Both are in the same position when waking up. I am sure many other tender hearts have made up the same word. Love is deeply connected among the ones who embrace the club. Admission is free. I am not afraid to walk up to a complete stranger and tell them what I think. I am better than no one but I am as good as anyone. I tell everyone I have contact with to be blessed. What I seek and embrace no amount of gold or money in the world can buy. You can’t learn it. You can’t fake it. You either know what it is or you were damaged somewhere along the way. Someone destroyed it. Sadly, this almost always has happened before you were five years old. True love is an instant thing: Caring more about the other person’s feelings than you do your own, and the other person feels exactly the same way about you. You cry when you make love. You cry when you are happy. And when, on that rare occurrence, you cry because the other person accidentally hurt your feelings, we are both there to catch every single tear drop in our hands and kiss the hurt away. Just the slightest squeeze of your hand allows you to know that you are loved. I am not British, I am naturally witty, and I really don’t know how to look like anyone but me……But at the very least……we are going to be lifelong friends……I do not know the how or the why……I think it matters not……It has already begun. Smile. Inside and out. I will feel it whether you know it or not. We are blessed and at times will not even realize it. Not yet. Beautifully and magically blessed. Its that simple. If it feels as though I am talking to you, and I mean in a deep and profound way, then I probably am. That is simply how God rolls......lol. |
